Most people give up their New Year's Resolutions in the first week. I guess I'm no different. It's not that I wasn't going to try, because I'm all for trying!!! However, after calling the insurance company I'm told that I will have to come up with $12000.00 (my deductible is higher than I originally thought so the HSA account only hold about half of my deductible.)
I was reflecting on all of the people who were at the seminar last night. Several of them my size, some smaller, some were even wheel chair bound and couldn't walk because of their weight. I know I am struggling but I really hope they get to have the surgery!
I wish I had a well of cash to dig into so that I could get this surgery but it's just simply not so. I'm not going to be able to do the Gastric Bypass surgery.
It's not so funny but putting on my clothes this morning, my favorite jeans that fit me so perfectly were a little too tight, I twisted my knee and my ankle, and since I didn't sleep last night I also didn't wear make up so I was a MESS today. It was as if my body was telling me, "HA HA, you're never going to feel good!"
In just the time it took to type this I realized that my New Year's Resolution was not that I was going to have this surgery but that I was not going to let my lack of insurance coverage keep me from getting healthy. I can actually continue THAT New Year's Resolution. *in my best ghetto voice* This ain't over! I ain't started singin' yet! HA HA!!!
You know what, I still have my EGD scheduled, I am going to find out what is up with my GI tract. Many doctors have told me that the key to me losing weight is to get that under control, and it's the biggest issue I have anyway! Maybe there's some other treatment that isn't Gastric Bypass that my insurance will pay for. It could happen. There is a tiny glimmer left and I'm not the type to stop hoping! (I might take a "hope-break" in order to cry and throw my pity parties but I always eventually get what I want)!
I completely understand, My insurance covers it but where I work they have a special clause that prevents us to have it through the insurance company. Eating healthy cost money, LOTS of money.Anyone who says you can afford to eat healthy isn't poor or living on a single income. It is cheaper to eat 2 meals a day and eating foods like Potatoes which on average cost 3-5 dollars for 10 pound bag and hamburger meat. The cost of food has well over doubled in price over the last few years. For example milk now cost more than a gallon of gas. And they wonder why Americans have such a hard time staying healthy. 1 1/2cup of blueberries or grapes cost about as much as the 10 pound bag of potatoes. My issue is I have arthritus in my feet and the rest of me is willing to walk but they won't let me :-)
ReplyDeleteAs far as having a pity party. Over the years we have been able to have the following:
Boston Tea Party
Workers World Party
We even have a Democratic and Republican Party.
SO WHY NOT HAVE A PITY PARTY! I'll join with you. LOL.